Sunday, August 10, 2008

My Brain Hurts

Oh my goodness. I am pulling my hair out with this short story. SF your killing me here. lol. Is this a payback for my last post to you not wanting to make the changes Ann had suggested? If it were, then I wouldn't have to look so hard at my writing. So you see that would give me an out.

I think I am getting way off track. I need to go back to when this all came to me and make it better instead of changing it all up. It was truly a gut wrenching piece that brought some healing to me about some things. I think I am losing the power of it in the revisions. I don't know anything anymore, except this is hard work, but I am up for it, as long as I know if I am doing it right or am I all wrong. I don't know. Everyone has an opionion of what they like, no one person can gear their writing for everyone to like it, that just isn't possible. I just want to know I am writing it in the best form it could possibly be. Does any of this make any sense to anybody? I am trying to cram 40 years into 500 words. I think its a good start for that book, but I can't help rememeber the words in our last lesson, " All writers love the sound of their own words. This is natural. Wow, I read that and thought, well that explains it, its not like my singing, I know I sound bad singing, so the measuring bar is different. How will I know if I suck at this or not? Because honestly the first 50 reads I usually like what I write very much, a day or two later maybe not so much. Well, that's all I wanted to say. I am going to bed now. My brain hurts....

9 comments:

jkc said...

I know how you're feeling, or at least partly. I'm shaking my head in misery over my "500 word creative piece." And yeah, it sounded great to me at first but now I just don't know. I enjoy it, so I guess my audience is an audience of one? How can you take what sounds good to you and make it into something that sounds good to many?

I do think you hit the nail on the head (hello there Mr. Cliche....so glad you're still a part of my vocabulary) with trying to cram 40 years of living into 500 words.

Charlene said...

I too feel at a lost on my essay. I've been about ready to give up, throw it across the room, but that would hurt my computer, and sigh and start over! My head hurts too! But I think we all need to hang in there and it'll work in the end.

Sally said...

Well, I totally feel the pain of all this. My head hurts too. In Jessie's Run, I thought I did great in my first paragraph but then Ann said it needed rewriting, which just threw me way off base. My thought process jammed up and I couldn't produce a thing that sounded like what was in my mind. I respect Ann and rely on her judgment but it sure is hard for me!! I know one thing, I have a lot to learn!!! So let's all hang in there we only have 2 more lessons. I can't seem to get Jessie off that bridge lol

Theresa said...

Sally, hurray! I have missed you, where the heck have you been?

Jesse's run was good but you know what? What we think is good today may not be good tomorrow because we are improving. We will one day be good enough to be published. Atleast that's my hope. So, I might have a bald spot on the top of my head before its over but when I sell my first novel, I'll buy a wig.lol

I've also thrown my short story across the room a few times-printed version of course not my laptop, that wouldn't be good.

Good to hear from you!

Sally said...

Hi ann garci, it is good to be back, I had some medical issues with my mom, but the test came back good ann she is feeling much better. The doctor said for an 80 yr old, she is better than she thinks. He told her to go pick her tomatoes out of her little garden. It would be good for her ( and me too lol . Praise the Lord she is doing as good as she is..
Now.. back to writing....I guess I am like most everyone else, I like my own words lol, but writing isn't as easy as I thought it would be. I can come up with book titles and one or two paragraphs.. after that I have a total brain shut-down. You are right when you say that at first our writings sound good, but then in a few days, it doesn't seem to sound as good. I know in my mind what I want to say because I am watching a movie in my mind, but getting it onto paper is a task that just baffles me. In my minds movie I see to much detail to put on paper. That would bog down a reader instantly. So I have a hard time choosing what details to add and which ones to leave out. So when it comes to rewriting .... once I have watched the movie in my mind, it is hard to rewind and rethink the movie . . Gosh I sound so complicated... maybe that's my problem... I am over complicating my writing. I will think on that for a while. Anyway, thank you for missing me and I am awfully glad to be back.

Theresa said...

Sally. put those concerns on the discussion board. You're not the only person that gets bogged down like that. Those are great concerns to discuss. I am sure there will be a lot of good advice out there and I know Ann will have something to say that will help.

And I am so glad to hear your mother is well! My tomatoe plant isn't producing but my serrano pepper plant is. I don't know what to do for it. It's my first attempt at both.

ShadowFlame said...

Hey don't blame me! I just plant little seeds. If they grow, they grow... not because of me but because of your own thoughts. If they don't, they don't... again because of your own thoughts. I should have spent more time reading here and I would have come to my defense sooner. But there ya go. At any rate, I don't quite agree with "all authors love the sound of their own words". I know I don't. It has to be just so. I'm a perfectionist, so being blinded by the fact it is my work doesn't even come into consideration. As a matter of fact, I may have the opposite problem. I hate the sound of my own words. Unless it comes from inspiration... then, like when I first held my son, I stare in awe as if I can't believe it really came from me.

Theresa said...

Hey no sweat! I actually thought you would have seen it the day I put it up. You challanged me. I may fret a bit, but I actually love to be challanged. It stretches me to do better. So thanks.

I do usually like what I write atleast when I first read it. The next day is a whole nother story...ugh.

jkc said...

I don't know if I like the sounds of all of my own words, but there's usually that one phrase where I think I'm a genius :) And then I get hurt if someone else doesn't like it, which makes me nervous to post things...and so on.